Let go of the desire for it, right at the cusp of having it

i’ve been disagreeing with disattachment from the thing for a while. perhaps resisting is a better word.

7th charka is pure cosmic energy but predicated on egoic disattachment… but wtf does that mean in practice? also jesus christ why won’t she text me back?

right at the tiem of havng it

perhaps its:

• you preventatively neever act / justify / change up your approach because its all rooted in your fear of losing it

  • and this attachment to NOT losing it may also contrive/contrast the HEAviest when you are closest to it

but still - if i ask her out, or tell her how i feel - i’d probably lose her! she probably doesn’t want anything to do with me! she runs into

so i’m not sure if its disattachment… but rather a reclamation of

your feelings and desire for it may be genuine … its the sense of relinquishing yourself to the thing youre pursuing - as though it vindicates your “lacking of” if you don’t have it …

yez… yez this is the real shiz

If the idea of it happening, of it being right around the corner

• if youre ego enjoys knowing its right there for you and it feels like it possess there…

  • thats great. the ADJACent aspect IS territory you can experience your mammalian rage over if threatened

    • thus…. the threat may come from actually implementing out the next thing. so thats that. … yomp!

• my ego enjoy listening to myself state it, that ITS “Right there” as i happily descrieb it or not.

  • but oh man. if i give in… if i become addicated to this - the fact that the target is in my crossheirs … but not HIT …

    • it’ll never actually get hit.