yes, charles, I’m a writer

i don’t hvae to wait for the words.

most of life is just endurance between when i can finally put words down.

to get to those words, i now accept theres a lot of words that must come out; words that relfet back to me.

i endure life, and appreciate its juxtaposition from when the words come out… its all supporting the engine with fodder for its percolation.

i may enjoy all the hedonism, delights, all of what this world has to offer … simply for exactly that reason: fodder. fodder for the words.

I heard that Bukowski poem about 6-7 years ago

Both the ones were

• life will just be this… everything else a test of your endurance

• if the words kept pouring out of you; you just cannot stop…

yes, you come up with all sorts of things. The e-commerce side also, the scaling startup, the day training, the risk factor, the flip of hustle and items. about your ego about just the discomfort of not knowing sitting there with somebody that’s not gonna work very well and beat yourself bad about it. then suddenly the ego superconscious and ego and stuff like that are trying to find solutions for other areas like cheap dopamine.

My current resolution is understanding that writing is coming from a place of expanded consciousness. It’s a lens a perception… a story.

Typically, overcoming, letting go, attaching, detaching. It’s the entirety of human condition captured and conveyed everything we end up in terms of the circumstances, endeavors plates experiences an opportunities… Basically everything that could be underneath this one umbrella of the word we call “life”.

I said OK let me just go into the world that I feel very good to be around, look at it for what it is: experience

All of it is meant to inform one thing:

• writing

should I dance and never come feelings and start writing songs about somebody, that’s great, should I be overcome my ego and writing songs of memories of painful experiences in businesses, betrayal trust, hedonism, a successful deal, closed, rewards, and material incentives and stuff like this… It all becomes Father… And L?? becomes expanded versions of consciousness… It all becomes writing.

Even just finding the basics of a living means…

Suddenly, you become free from the endeavors themselves and understanding that they’re executive what they’re meant to be just to go on and continue living just to capture and convey things

Just to notice the world going around you and the fact that there are just as many worlds of those planet as there are people… As there are living beings… All live in their own world… All experiencing their own consciousness

thus… that’s what it is.

Running away from experiencing my own has been hard; it’s stimulating overbearing, and I have definitely cracked or snapped several times in the past… But I’m still alive … breathing…

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There’s nothing else to experience besides this;

So when I go live through different lens and

I might have my own challenges of the culturist, a predispositions and values that I’ve internalized from the world around me being challenged in my own belief system in real time as I’m navigating environments and just frequently letting go of perception, optics, inferencing outcomes, and other survival mode dependent things in a space, and that might intern exhibit or change of behavior… In real time, this could lead to objectively better outcomes, or at least, or correlated to them; they’re not necessarily causal.

But I might lead one to actually move in the world with curiosity and let questions be answered by others, and thus build solutions for them from a place of only engaging with the problem in itself and scoping it into that whole experience, and not necessarily finding themselves manifested improving through it

So yes, maybe the journey needs to return and face the music, but not just face the music but dance with it, make it, absorb it, listen to it, understand it, throw it away, bash it, fuck it, and just have the entirety of the human condition experienced…

The fidelity the immersion sensor experience to activate. something far more than characters and a few inches of screen pixels ever - which Could only augment at best.




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Ok 

So u wanna be a writer

1. Whelp

1. Refactoring the entirety of 

Went into it with hammering away at something 

Maybe shouldn’t do that

Maybe keep talking to people in this space 

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May passion is clawer:

• Help others make money with AI 

• Help others get time + energy back with AI augmentation 

I do this by being iron man 

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Yes 

There s o much noise

Yes the world

Yrs everything I endure

For moments of living and consciousness….

• Real llife isn’t a cinematic real world/ cuts… I must experience the dreaded lows between the cinematic moments 

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I feel it.

I live and experiecne this life. authentically. genuinely. what calls out to me. I feel it all .and learn the smithing and revealtion of writing. i can feel and recognize where there’s soul in eveything around me.

thus, everything in my life is meant to be experiened. experiencing expands consciousness. consciousness is best contained by writing. this is the land of those who are, and who have been alive. the writer’s way.